1. Who are you?

Bechira Sullivan

2. What are the 3 most important things everyone should know about you?

I'm talented, I have prophetic dreams, and I've been alone since my mom died when I was 5

3. When you aren't filling out 5,000 question surveys like this one what are you doing?

Going to school and trying to keep out of the way of my father

4. List your classes in school from the ones you like the most to the ones you like the least (or if you are out of school, think of the classes you did like and didn't like at the time).

history, psychology, science, math, english

5. What is your biggest goal for this year?

Survive another year stuck living at home before I can claim my inheritance

6. Where do you want to be in 5 years?

Teaching and living on my own far away from my family

7. What stage of life are you in right now?

First year in college

8. Are you more child-like or childish?

Child-like

9. What is the last thing you said out loud?

I'm sorry

10. What song comes closest to how you feel about your life right now?

Sad

11. Have you ever taken martial arts classes?

No

12. Does your life tend to get better or worse or does it just stay the same?

Hm. It got worse than sort of stayed the same.

13. Does time really heal all wounds?

No

14. How do you handle a rainy day?

Cover my head and keep going

15. Which is worse...losing your luggage or having to sort out tangled holiday lights?

Haven't had to deal with either...

16. How is your relationship with your parents?

Mom is dead, my father....not good.

Will you miss them when they are gone?

I miss my mom, I won't miss my father

17. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you?

Very aware

18. What is the truest thing that you know?

It can always get worse

19. What did you want to be when you grew up?

Teacher

20. Have you ever been given a second chance?

No

21. Are you more of a giver or a taker?

Giver

22. Do you make your decisions with an open heart/mind?

Yes

23. What is the most physically painful thing that has ever happened to you?

Hit by a car my father was driving when he was chasing me down

24. What is the most emotionally painful thing that has ever happened to you?

Mom dying and dad....changing....

25. Who have you hugged today?

No one

26. Who has done something today to show they care about you?

No one

27. Do you have a lot to learn?

I suppose

28. If you could learn how to do three things just by wishing and not by working what would they be?

A Everything I need to get my Master's

B How to fight

C How to paint

29. Which do you remember the longest: what other people say, what other people do or how other people make you feel?

Feel

30. What are the key ingredients to having a good relationship?

Don't know

31. What 3 things do you want to do before you die?

A Be Free

B Get over my past

C Write a novel

32. What three things would you want to die to avoid doing?

A Letting my father hurt anyone else

B Being a traitor

C Being like my father

33. Is there a cause you believe in more than any other cause?

Not really - I have so much to deal with my own problems

34. What does each decade make you think of:

The 19..

20's:

30's:

40's:

50's:

60's:

70's:

80's:

90's:

2000 (so far):

2010's:

35. Which decade do you feel the most special connection to and why?

36. What is your favorite oldie/classic rock song?

37. What country do you live in and who is the leader of that country?

If you could say any sentence to the current leader of your country what would it be?

38. What's your favorite TV channel to watch in the middle of the night?

39. What Disney villain are you the most like and why?

40. Have you ever been a girl scout/boy scout?

41. If you were traveling to another continent would you rather fly or take a boat?

42. Why is the sky blue during the day and black at night?

43. What does your name mean?

44. Would you rather explore the deeps of the ocean or outer space?

45. Word association

What is the first word that comes to mind when you see the word:

Air:

Meat:

Different:

Pink:

Deserve:

White:

Elvis:

Magic:

Heart:

Clash:

Pulp:

46. If you could meet any person in the world who is dead who would you want it to be?

47. What if you could meet anyone who is alive?

48. Is there a movie that you love so much you could watch it everyday?

49. You are going to be stuck alone in an elevator for a week. What do you bring to do?


50. Have you ever saved someone's life or had your life saved?
51. Make up a definition for the following silly words...

Fruitgoogle:

Ambytime:

Asscactus:

52. What was the last thing you made with your own hands?

53. What was your favorite toy as a child?

54. How many TV’s are in your house?

55. What is your favorite thing to do outside?

56. How do you feel when you see a rainbow?

57. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true?

58. Have you ever been to a psychic/tarot reader?

59. What is your idea of paradise?

60. Do you believe in god and if so what is he/she/it like?

61. Do you believe in Hell?

62. What one thing have you done that most people haven't?

63. What is the kindest thing you have ever done?

64. Are you a patient person?

65. What holiday should exist but doesn't?

66. What holiday shouldn't exist but does?

67. What's the best joke you ever heard?

68. Where is the most fun place you have EVER been?

69. Is your hair natural or dyed?

70. Do you have any deep dark secrets or are you pretty much up front?

71. What is under your bed right now?

72. If you were in the Land of Oz would you want to live there or go home?

73. If you drive do you frequently speed?

74. What is the world's best song to dance to?

75. What song was on the last time you danced with someone?

76. Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers?

77. What is the first animal you would run to see if you went to the zoo?

78. Would you consider yourself to be romantic?

79. If the earth stopped rotating would we all fly off?

80. What is the one thing that you love to do so much that you would make sacrifices to be able to do it?

81. If you (and everyone) had to lose one right or freedom, but you could pick which one everyone had to lose, what would you pick?

82. If you had to choose would you live on the equator or at the North Pole?

83. Would you rather give up listening to music or watching television?

84. What do you think makes someone a hero?

85. What cartoon would you like to be a character in?

86. Name one thing that turns your stomach:

87. What was the last thing you paid for?

88. Are you a coupon clipper?

89. Get anything good in the mail recently?

90. Which would you rather take as a gym class...dancing, sailing, karate, or bowling?

91. In Star Trek people 'beam' back and forth between different places. What this means is they stand in a little tube and their molecules are deconstructed and sent to another tube somewhere else where they are reassembled. Only problem is when the molecules are deconstructed the person is dead. When they are put back together it is only a clone that has all the dead person's memories. So...

Is the person who gets beamed the same person on both ends?

92. What insects are you afraid of?

93. If you could print any phrase on a T-shirt, what would it say?

94. What's the most eccentric thing you have ever worn?

95. If you could pick one food that you could eat all you wanted but it would have no effect on how much you weigh, what food would it be?

96. What are your parents interested in?

97. Have you ever caught an insect and kept it as a pet?

Have you ever caught and tamed a wild animal?

98. What is more helpful to you, wishes or plans?

99. When do you feel your life energy the strongest?

100. You are spending the night alone in the woods and may bring only 3 items with you. What do you bring?
Prompt: If you could spend your birthday doing anything you wanted, waht would it be and why?

My birthday has come and gone for as long as I can remember with barely any meaningful recognition. Sure, I've had my name on a cake on a bulletin board at school and been classroom leader of the day (also known as teacher's pet), but I've never had a real party. Elementary school was the best simply because that was when you were allowed to still be a child. Teachers still had treasure boxes and were attempting to trick you into thinking leadership and responsibilities were a privilege. Once you hit middle school, you are treated like a child who is too old to have fun. It is as if a switch is flipped and suddenly you no longer need time to run around outside or time to play with your toys. I have yet to understand that mentality. Of course, I had so little that I held onto everything that I could for as long as possible.

I remember when I was eight the teacher's aide in my class took pity on me and brought in a cake and a present for me. She could not understand how someone could have a child and not do something for their birthday. I had been at that school since I was 4 and the staff had gossiped about me since my mother died the summer after I turned five. My teachers had managed to be oblivious or apathetic to the fact that children are aware of adult things probably before they can talk. I knew what was said about me and I knew I was powerless to change it. Some pitied me, some argued that I just put on a good show at school and must be a terror at home. As third grade wore on, I began to act out. Any arm-chair psychologist would have realized that inevitability, but the teachers and staff just continued to chatter on.

Did I mention arm-chair psychology? The classroom aide, Ms. Callaghan was a student of psychology. She had taken an interest in me, probably because my situation and behavior was so 'textbook' to her. Weeks before my birthday, she started prepping me. She asked me about previous birthdays and what I would want if I could have anything at the toy store. She slowly gathered her information and I began to hope against hope that I just might have a good birthday for the first time I could remember. I had told her that I didn't like chocolate, that sugar icing is better than whipped, and that I would loved to have something new to wear like all the other kids on their birthdays - just once.

Any seasoned movie lover would be able to see what is coming. I was turning 9 and hadn't seen a movie since I went to see Song of the South with my mom.

My birthday fell on a school day as it so frequently does. I was early as usual, my step-dad always got rid of me as soon as he could. Ms. Callaghan was there early, too, and appeared to have been waiting for me. She smiled and waved me over and gave me a bag, telling me to hurry to the bathroom and change before the rest of the kids got there. I hurried and changed into the outfit - a trendy top with new jeans and brand name sneakers. On some level I knew this was a bad idea, but I exited the bathroom, shoving my old clothes into my backpack. I waited in the auditorium in my classroom's designated space as I did every morning. This morning was different, though, because I was wearing their clothes. The clothes the popular kids wore.

Kids from other classes began to trickle in slowly. One of my classmates showed up and did a double take - like in the movies! I smiled and then heard two words that I can still hear in my head to this day: Charity Case. My day quickly went downhill from there. The cake I got was a Charity Cake. "Yummy cake, Bechira! Good thing Ms. Callaghan brought you a pity cake, huh?" When my step-dad came to pick me up, it only got worse. He demanded to know what I was wearing and flew into a rage. When we got home, I was beaten the worst I had been in awhile and I never saw the clothes again.

I was not able to go back to school until the next following week.

Now I am very grateful there are no birthday balloons on classroom walls and that "my day" can pass without much attention. My ideal birthday is now spent hidden away in my room with a good book while my step-dad has hopefully temporarily forgotten my existence. Maybe topped off with finding a dollar on the ground for some white cheddar popcorn out of the machine at school. Now that's a good day.

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